Live today, it's where tomorrow's memory begins

2012-01-28T12:54:00.001+08:00

Even if I cry a thousand tears tonight

Happy CNY~~~ Will post about CNY again another time. For now, I'm just feeling.... Sick. 2 days MC, 2 days of staying home eat sleep eat sleep & not doing anything else, but still not well yet. So much work to catch up on, but I'm not studying. Can't continue like this, gotta buck up!

It's your mum's birthday today and I went to our shared twitter account to post a birthday wish even though no one but me will see it. Can't help but read all the old tweets from that account. Some made me laugh, but most of them made me cry. What was I doing a year ago? What in the world was I thinking? Why did I treat you that way? I knew it was too late for regrets, but I was just too ashamed of myself I couldn't find the courage to continue reading on. I just wanted to say, I'm sorry, Oppa. So sorry for so many things. Sorry for being the one who taught you how to cry. Sorry for all the heartbreaks. Sorry for not cherishing you. Sorry for making you love me. 对不起长大太慢，害你遗失了我。抱歉，让你白费了这么多。。。
只有失去才会懂得只有懂得才会珍惜

2012-01-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

Niran just posted some old pictures up onto facebook and wow, it brings back so much memories. I miss them, I miss 2010, I miss me. Day by day it seems like nothing has changed, but when you look back, so much has changed, everything has changed. This nostalgic feeling is getting too overwhelming, but the thing is I'm not crying. 觉得好辛苦，有种想哭却哭不出来的感觉。How can so much happen just within a year?

Back to my same old favourite lines.
"Live today, it's where tomorrow's memory begins"
"Everything happens for a reason"

2012-01-20T00:53:00.004+08:00

Once bitten, twice shy.
If it happens again, blame yourself.

2012-01-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

问再多为什么也不会有答案
但心里很清楚以后有更多误解的遗憾

No idea why I'm here when I've yet to complete my Econs assignment, yet to pack my bag, yet to brush my teeth. I'm bored I need to talk hahahaha I need @MianSMILE but she's perhaps somewhere playing tinytower now so ohwellz lonerme.

I....... haven't been talking to the mum for a week alr. When I reach home, I become a mute person so that explains why I'm so desperate to talk now LOL. Well I talk to sissy & papa but it gets awkward when mum suddenly walks into the room or appears out of nowhere HAHAHA weirrrrd.

Anw, I'm getting hyped up about CNY at the moment ;) Can't wait to wear my pretty new clothes, can't wait to see ppl I haven't met up with in a long time, can't wait to indulge in those fattening goodies, can't wait to gamble till my eyelids need toothpicks to hold, can't wait to collect all my angpao money bwahahaha!

2012-01-16T00:53:00.002+08:00

离开的时候有些话没亲口说
再多的承诺未来也难预测

It's me again. Went for a freaking boring waste of money and time compulsory concert at Esplanade with the choir today. The only good thing was 1 for 1 Gelato icecream. The end. Came home with my hokkien mee infront of me, all ready to battle the night of Econs marathon. But things just have to happen, and..... here I am blogging instead of doing my work when sch's in a few hours' time.

Why the fuck am I even still affected? It's been half a fucking year. Yes, I've moved on, I did, even though you were still right here all along, buried in the deepest pit of my heart. Yet why is it that again and again, I can't control these emotions? Sudden surge of emptiness, things that remind me that you're no longer mine to care for. Makes me wonder, have I even really moved on actually? Maybe it's true, even when everything's changed, love remains the same. Love perseveres. And whether or not the pain is worth it in the end, this doesn't matter. Because in time to come, we'd all have moved on. In time to come, we'd have learnt, we'd have grown. In time to come, love'd have conquered.

你走吧，我不哭，无论多痛苦
你走吧，我不哭，就算会迷路

2012-01-15T02:12:00.000+08:00

失恋过才明白
相处有多难

School has been hella tiring, especially when I have to rush all my holiday hw out at the last minute since I was slacking away in December. But surprisingly I think I've been coping fairly well. Like.... I'm motivated to study now :) When you hit rock bottom, the only way you can go is up, I guess I've said this before. And now, I can see myself on my way up already! Thank God for His grace, His love, His forgiveness.

Love the company in school, love self-proclaimed tinytower+twitter time during physics lectures, love all the neverending talks with Mianny, love sitting right in front of the chem lecturer (makes me pay attention), love it now that we have our home-room, love being able to charge my phone in class cuz apparently none of the teachers seem to give a damn.

But the sucky shit is the waking up part. I'm rly #foreverlate. Mj passed a new rule that we have to see the VP if we're late thrice in a term. But dude, it's only been the first week of school and yours truly has already been late twice. SERIOUSLY? -__- How many times will I need to see the VP then. VP got so free one ah. No wonder Mj has 4 VPs, do all these saikang.

Ok so picture above is one taken during open house mass dance. We didn't win, but I had fun nonetheless. Lazy to blog about it though, so..... mmhmm a picture speaks a thousand words AHA.

2012-01-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

没有一个人有资格说出我不会原谅你这句话, 因为上帝已经先原谅我们了, 我们活着不断伤害自己也一再的伤害别人, 每一个人的心都如此的破碎. 直到我们认识了耶稣, 衪医治我们的心, 衪让我们知道自己不是一个人, 不是孤单的. 衪对我们的爱是永恒的, 耶稣也教导我们真理, 真理里最大的是"爱", 告诉我们: 我怎么爱你你就怎样爱别人~

亲爱的上帝! 原谅我的不完全, 在这跌跌撞撞的过程里, 很受伤, 但祢一路的保守我, 像我伸出双手扶持我, 安慰我! 鼓励我! 任何事情不管是开心的或是难过的, 我都要感谢祢, 赞美祢~ 求主给我一颗柔软的心, 让我能接受被爱, 爱神以及爱人! 阿们!

2012-01-10T22:17:00.003+08:00

只能勇敢

Here you go again. The never ending insults hahahaha i love them. Love how you respect me hahahahahaha. Go on, just go on. I know I'm such a disgrace to you, I can't even smell the backside of RGS, I'm not even half the size of your other daughter, hahaha and my imperfections can go on and on. I've accepted it, that I'll never be good enough for you, never be able to fit your bill of a perfect daughter. No matter how hard I try.

But sometimes you have to know that you're not always right. You have to know that the whole family has been putting up with all your bullshit, and not the other way round. You have to know that I'm 17 and I don't deserve such treatment from you. You have to know that there're so many things I keep to myself, that you don't see, that you just assume. You have to know that I've grown strong and this will be the last time I'll ever cry my eyeballs out because of you. You have to know that I'll never appear weak before you, never again.

Ok I guess that's all you have to know. At least for now.
The fire's burning out, and my heart's turned cold, all numb, all immune.

2012-01-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

With this heart as cold as ice

I know I'm like 9 days late but, happy 2012 to whoever's still reading my blog. I'm like so lag, twitter's already trending at page 9 of 366 LOL. Was very busy for the past couple of days so I didn't have the time to update this space, sorry dear diary.. Well actually tbh I did spend a few days crafting out a freaking long essay post about 2011 on all that I've been through, all that I've learnt, and just, basically everything about 2011, the whole rollercoaster journey, both the ups and downs. But as I typed........ haha I realised I'd rather keep it private to myself to read so, yup transferred it to my "Part and parcel of life, part of growing up" folder in my desktop instead :)

So what have I been up to while I was away from h-eartscollide (what a crappy url, I'm gnna change it soon)

First of all, countdown with Shanelle, Edwin, Casper, Kaifeng & Kent at Marina Barrage! Pretty fireworks, good company, retarded games, fattening snacks, red faces, fun night ;) Got home at like 3am hahahaha the overwhelming banglah smell at the MRT station held quite some significance to my page 1 of 366.

After replenishing my sleep on the 2nd, I spent the 3rd day of 2012 singing & pooling with my retarded girls Sj Zhu F & Serene at Katong! Finally had my oreo thick ice blend + tomyam noodles after such a long long time heh

Spent some time getting worried for this idiotic girl on the right and at the same time caring silently for this ctp on the left whom I dearly miss alot. Prayed for the both of them, and God heard me! They're recovering already. PTL.

Mahjong-ed at Wendy's place with Jiaying Chua Aka on the fifth day, seems like it was an inauspicious day for me cuz I kept losing ugh. Had lots of fun laughing and all nonetheless! Left her hse quite late and SBS totally pissed me off that night. (We didn't take pix that day so I just posted a random mj pic hahahaha but tmd see alr make my hand itchy wnna play sia!!!!)

Shopping with Lynnie & Mianny on the 6th after mass dance + choir practice! Bought a pretty dress that I like and I'm quite happy with it! Can't wait to wear it, CNY faster come~ Oh ya, guess what, my watch is featured at Bugis MRT! With my fav singer ^^ Hehe pic above!

Weekend was spent playing tiny tower, watching drama/xingguang (GSM WON YAY), nuaing, eating, enjoying life HAHAHAHA ok that's all, before I knew it school has started so hell begins from here.

2011-12-30T23:59:00.005+08:00

想知道你真的过得好吗
没有我也许是种解脱

2011 has come to an end. I have so much to say but I think I'll save it for tomorrow or smth cuz I'm really really too tired to think now I just wnna make this post a quick one.

So it was class chalet on the 28th. Met Mianny&Casper to go together, played cards at the chalet while waiting for the rest. Rented our bikes and then we dapao-ed food to eat tgt. Mian & I borrowed Joey's bikes to save $$$ but we ended up screaming like idiots from Joey's hse all th way back to chalet cuz it was so difficult to tompang each other HAHAHA

Started cycling at around 1230am, went to Mian's hse first at Tamp to send her home and exchange bike cuz Joey's rly cmi for me HAHA. I rode on Mian's stuntbike in the end and the seat was so hard my ass cramp all th way. Then our next stop was Bedok. Got hungry halfway though, so we stopped by Simpang for supper!!!! Roti prata ^^

Then we cycled all the way to ECP, slacked at the skatepark for awhile, and then to Jetty to enjoy seabreeze. Made our long way back to Changi. My stomach cramp halfway it was so terrible but thank God for my friends, especially Edwin who cycled behind me so that I wouldn't be left behind. Somemo everyone kept "Jolene feeling better?" "Stomach ok alr?" "Need rest awhile?" "You can anot?" like every few mins HAHAHA thanks guyz!

Then back to chalet, reached at 830am. So we cycled for 8 freaking hours seriously shag till cannot close mouth sia. Ass open flower already lor. Casper bought breakfast for me cuz my stomach still pain, while I slept :') Slept till 1pm, then to watch Sherlock Holmes! After that, shopped for bbq stuffz and we had our BBQ + breezer yayayayay like damn long nv touch alcohol alr~

Celebrated Jonathan's birthday after that, indulged in ColdStone icecream that Allen brought back from work, then Mianny & I left the chalet at 2am. Hehehe I love all of you people, 11S203! Meeting them again tmr for countdown! CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!! Today was just spent replenishing my sleep at home hahaha tmr will be the bombz ^^

2011-12-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

也许在不同的时空
还牵着你的手

Changed my facebook layout a couple of days ago cuz I stumbled upon profiles of random friends and found the timeline thing rather cool. But after meddling with it for a few days, I realised it's so damn messy and I kind of dislike it now. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE BACK OMG. How smart of you huh Jo -___-

Anyway, went to study at the airport with Jiaying today. Managed to complete a GP assignment yay us! Then after that we spent our time talking chatting gossiping htht-ing. Forever like that sia study session = study 10% talk 90% HA HA

11S203 chalet tmr :) Not exactly excited cuz I'm very very very tired. Been really busy during the Christmas period I'm so worn out already boo :( But ironically I can't wait to meet my dear classmates, feels like I haven't seen them in a long long while!

"You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have."

2011-12-27T01:39:00.001+08:00

等那天你才真的看透我们认真爱过
但这些又算得了什么

Used to it, so used to it. Used to all these nonsense that you throw at me every single day. I've been living with this for 17 years, what's new? It's not that I don't love you, don't want to obey you, but sometimes you just can't see that I've been trying, trying so hard since day1. All you see is my flaws, my imperfections, the wrong things I do. You've never given a damn about the things I do right. But I'm used to it already anw, often I just keep taking in your criticisms, your judgements, or even your beatings, I just tolerate, and tolerate, and tolerate. I don't even wnna utter a word or bother to argue. Doesn't mean I don't feel anything. I'm only human, I have feelings.

But...... Oh well, "You were only given this life because you're strong enough to live it". God gave me this life for a reason. Thank you mum, you've made me so much stronger.

2011-12-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

忘了吧曾经我们手牵着手说着以后
算了吧你的承诺对我来说就像气球

Will be blogging about overdued post on 2CR chalet that happened about 2 weeks ago. Hmm, let me recall............. Met Abi & Aka after my caroling prac that day and went with them first, bought stuff for everyone, then Abi treated us to yummy icecream! Haven't had it in a long time ^^ Played cards over at the chalet while waiting for the others to come.

Walked and lepaked around at Ehub, had dinner and all before heading back to the chalet to wait for Huanda. The others left, leaving Jiaying & I as the only girls staying over. Huanda brought us to pasir ris park for nightwalk and abandoned us halfway -_- We couldn't find our way back, ended up at Elias Mall for supper. Took our own sweet time going back, reached chalet at like 2am or smth.

Watched some retarded movie till we fell asleep. Chua Jy & I were squeezing on 1 tiny mattress wlao poor us. Woke up with backache -_- Breakfast, then, to sell our WWW tickets! Reminds me of selling Toshiba laptops haha my salesgirl skills put to good use eh? Walked around after that and did a lil bit of shopping! Helped Aka to dress up too! AW THAT SEXY GIRL HA HA HA HA LAUGHED LIKE MAD SERIOUSLY

Went back for a swim hehe! Wanted to leave after that with the girls but Huanda didn't allow me to so they left me by myself with the guys. Dinner, talked, lepak, then Huanda sent me home.

It was quite an enjoyable 2 days spent with these group of people even though we were deprived of bbq food & always cracking our brains on what to do next! Thank Chua for overseeing everything and organising this getogether before our hectic j2 year~

2011-12-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

说爱我的那一天你疼我像个孩子
离开我的那一天却让我更成熟点

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!

Spent my Christmas eve + Xmas with the family ♥
Happy birthday to the greatest father in the universe, my Papa Jesus!
我很忙, 就此搁笔.

2011-12-23T15:49:00.002+08:00

不是学不会
只是觉得爱太美值得去沉醉

Met Lorraine & Wesley for a short while at Tamp yesterday, then........ went out with Godma!!! It's been so so so so so so so freaking long since we ever went shopping together or even had a meal together. I brought her to Pasir Ris for a walk cuz she seldom goes there and she wanted to check out the new sports complex. Walked around for awhile, ate, went pasar malam.

I'm so thankful for my godma. So blessed to have her around. I need to cherish her more, much much more. She's that 1 adult, who truly loves me with all her heart. Many times I wnna tell her that I'm grateful for her, that I love her too, but I just have no courage to say all those stuff. So sometimes I just give her a warm hug. Hope she understands :')

She went home after that and I went off to meet Mianny for a double S session! Study+shop! HEHEHEHE managed to complete our 1st holiday assignment and shopping was quite fruitful also. As for today, I'm staying home to complete elearning :( But there's mahjong session tonight so......... yay for that!

2011-12-23T15:31:00.001+08:00

我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀

I miss Taiwan........... I miss not having to worry about anything. I miss waking up excited about the activities lined up, shopping eating taking photos relaxing playing. I want another getaway. Away from this place, this place of misery, pain, and.............. memories.

Still find it hard to believe that the year is coming to an end in 8 days. Looking back at 2011, so much have happened. Just so much. Too much. But everything happened for a reason. And I've grown up a whole lot through these shit that life threw at me.

I have no new year resolutions for 2012. No hopes, no expectations, no wishes either. I'm going to welcome the new year with open arms and a bright smile. 2011's gone with the wind, much less 2010. Leave the past where it is, we move on, into a brand new year. No point looking back anymore Jo. No more regrets.

2011-12-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

好的事情最后虽然结束
感动时分就有十分满足

Went to explore the new mall Katong L12 with Jiaying Aka & Chua on Monday! We attempted to study there but failed quite miserably cuz all we did was eat walk chat. Ok la managed to do some hw actually, since I consider 5 questions of chem as an accomplishment. What was funny was during lunch, I peeled prawns for Chua cuz he dumped all his prawns onto my plate. Figured out that he was lazy to peel himself, so I peeled, and he ate. The epic part came when during dinner, his father randomly told him "Never let a girl peel prawns for you" and he texted me about it I was like HA HA HA HA WHAT A COINCIDENCE!

Caroling at Eightrium on Tuesday morning went quite okay. The kids who watched us were mouthing Jingle Bells along with us they were so cute I was practically staring and observing them throughout our performance instead of paying attention to the conductor oooops! Rushed back home after that, bathed & ate at super speed and then rushed out to meet Lynette! We went to collect our pays hehehe ^^ Found out that we were the highest sellers omg awesome us! Lynette top seller, followed by me second whoopwhoop!! $344 for me yay yay yay rich+happygirls94 ;)

After which, met Mian & Casper for a little bit of shopping + dinner! They spent the whole time helping me to take out my extensions HAHAHA feel like a queen sia me~ Htht with them always feel so good. Came home at around 1030 last night and today's a stay home day. Need to complete at least 1 homework today, go Jo!

2011-12-21T12:57:00.007+08:00

曾为他相信明天就是未来
越深的依赖越多的空白

Sometimes I wonder how God feels, to see the very people whom he love so much, love someone else, worship someone else, and what's more, someone who doesn't even exist. For us, we may only experience 1 person doing so, perhaps our ex, or our crush. But for God, it's like whut, billions of people breaking his heart. And yet he can still give so sacrificially, love so unconditionally, forgive the people so undeserving. Just how great is our God.

Lifted up, defeated the grave
Raised to life, our God is able
In His name, we overcome
For the Lord our God is able

PS: Can't wait to see broken lives restored, lost souls become found, on Christmas

2011-12-19T23:34:00.003+08:00

SO FUCKING ANGRY NOW I COULD KILL SOMEONE. I DONT EVEN WNA EXPLAIN IT.

Sometimes, people are just so inconsiderate. Sometimes hard work doesn't pay off. We work harder than others but others get the priority cuz they're older/more 'experienced'/whatever. Shit happens, life's always unfair and all you have to do is suck it up. But fuck I don't even sing for the money? I mean, don't we sing because we like singing, because it's our passion, because we want to bless others with our voices and our songs? So just because of the money, some people are depriving others of their Christmas happiness? Don't you find yourselves selfish like that?

Purposely made the effort to reorganise my events, plan and arrange all my Christmas activities nicely so that it wouldn't clash, rejected my friends for Christmas outings cuz I knew my priorities, only to realise it's all in vain. You're my priority but to you, I'm just an option. Still, I'm not blaming anyone. I just think that those who organised this mess ought to be shameful of themselves. Whoever it is. Haven't been this angry for a long time. Thanks to everyone who tried to explain to me and made me feel better, regardless of whether or not you'll ever see this.

PLZ JUST GOD TEACH ME HOW TO FORGIVE JUST LIKE HOW YOU'VE FORGIVEN ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS SO UNDESERVING.

Ps: Gonna be a sleepless night tonight. My cramps and moodswings ain't making things better.

2011-12-18T20:01:00.001+08:00

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

Ytd was caroling prac in the morning, then quality time with the family :) Headed down to Bishan to discuss about our new house and the interior designs. Hehe was quite fun and I'm excited about the new house! No more having to bear with all those sad memories whenever I step into my room or walk that path home.

Church service today was good, brought home something again as usual. This time, it's a heart of gratitude! Sure gonna live by that from now on :) Came home, was running a fever of 38.8 so I took a nap in the perfect weather. Was woken up by notifications from whatsapp & messages. That explains why I'm online now instead of resting.

Will be studying with the 2CR retards tmr if my fever subsides :) I BELIEVE I'LL GET WELL!!!!! Hehe go Jo! Thanks to sissy for taking care of me! Thanks Chua for praying for me too! Grateful for all of my friends, really. #nowplaying: 谢谢你们爱我的每个人~

2011-12-16T15:02:00.004+08:00

我找不到理由忘记那么爱我的你
给我个理由放弃当时做的决定

HAHA realised my previous post on Taiwan looked a little dull without photos but I'm too lazy to upload them on blogger since everything's already up on facebook. Shall just make do with it then! Sorry to whoever reads my blog :/

Just came back from chalet very late last night! Today's got to be a stay home day cuz I'm really overtiring myself already. Still sick too. Oh not forgetting my cramps will begin any moment from now. BIG FAT SIGH. Anw I'll blog about chalet probably after Wendy uploads the photos.

Went to help out in a kids camp on Tuesday with a few of my classmates as part of CIP. My partner was Edwin and we were stationed so far away from the rest that it totally bored us out :( HAHAHA it was quite funny when we kept attempting to entertain ourselves though! Some of the kids were quite adorable so I guess it's another good experience for me :)

2011-12-12T18:37:00.006+08:00

有一天相信你会怀念那个傻傻的我
淋着大雨等在你路口

Hi Jo's diary!!!!!! Jo's back from Taiwan ;) Thought I could catch some sleep & take a break when I'm back but no, the week ahead is so so packed omg. I have kids camp CIP tmr, followed by 2CR chalet, and then caroling. Lei si wo le~~~

8 days in Taiwan passed by so quickly I wished we had like 8 months there. Thank God for our Christian tour guide he was so nice & comical HA HA makes the long bus rides less torturing. Thank God for patient & understanding tour mates as well! Even though most of us including me fell sick, still thank God for keeping us safe through the trip.

It was raining almost everyday so that kinda dampened our spirits quite a bit adding on to the fact that the rain made it freezing cold we almost couldn't take it. But the made up for the weather! It was the bombz!!! All the awesome food, night markets, food, food, and more food. Didn't buy anything much back home except for foooood HAHAHA but Quek family leh what's new?

Along the way there were always China tour groups and they pissed the crap out of all of us. Tmd cut queue here cut queue there even in the toilet also cut non-stop wtf can't stand them. Block our way nvm, somemo keep pushing me bumping into me elbowing me tmd see me no up keep bullying me only. Talk so freaking loudly with their annoying china accent, always come and cut into my photos spoil my pretty pix seriously. K enough of them bitches.

The wind was so strong near the Pacific Ocean it was crazy!!!! HAHA the hotel rooms were all so spacious and fairly clean ^^ Hot spring was good, played pool with papa for consecutive nights as well. Quality time spent with sissy, laughed and did stupid crazy things together. Dylan was so funny and he kept sticking to me hahaha guess I'm the best aunt ever :') Overall I'd rate this trip 8/10 hehe!!!

2011-12-03T22:24:00.001+08:00

你带走了什么你看不见
它却不断侵蚀着我每一天



Got a 4S today yay hehehehe can finally say byebye to my cui-until-cannot-cui iphone3! But I will shebude one leh, 毕竟 been using that phone for almost 2 years already! I don't like changes, even small little ones like changing pencilcase, changing phones :( K but nvm I think my 4S very chio!

Anyway I'm flying off tomorrow already, so............ bye!!!!!
台湾我来了！！！

2011-12-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍

Went to watch gala premiere of Nasi Lemak 2.0 with Jy, Chua & Aka a few days back cuz Chua had free tix. Everyone was totally sleeping omg I swear the show sux like shit. But nvm la not bad, saw a few actors.

Then there was this day we had CIP at Marina Barrage where we flew kites with the elderly and spent time with the needy. Another good experience for me :')

After which Shanny, Mianny, Sugi & I headed to Orchard for some shopping and then visited Allen at his workplace - Coldstone!!!! That poor boy was busy giving out flyers while we enjoyed our 20% discounted icecream hehe ^^v

As for today I spent some time with Mianny after choir+massdance. Went shopping + library + her hse to lepak & gossip. She lent me some stuff for my Taiwan trip too heh heh. It's like we have never ending things to talk about ;) Alright update again tmr byebye nightnight

2011-12-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

Just because it didn't last forever, doesn't mean it wasn't worth it.

2011-12-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

时间过得好快想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百我应该怎么猜

Went to send Edwin off at the airport the other day after work. He was so surprised and touched hehe glad that our efforts didn't go to waste! I can slowly feel our class rly getting more and more bonded. How it was so late already but Lynette & I still rushed down to the airport right after our work. Some of the others even went straight after a whole day of training, school activities, etc. Some from home far far away. Beginning to love 11S203 even more! Class chalet's confirmed alr hehe can't wait ;)

Meanwhile, Edwin's busy training at his shaolin temple in China ahahaha come back soon dude!

2011-11-30T21:36:00.001+08:00

点点滴滴都是回忆
挥挥一手怎么忘记

4 days of work at SITEX has come to an end ;) I had so much fun working with awesome company, all the Toshiba ppl are so nice. My colleages, the new ppl I met, my bosses, my customers. I learnt so much from this working experience, it wasn't just about the money, but I took so much more back home.

Tbh apart from helping out at the icafe in chungcheng with a $5 pay, I haven't had an official job before. So this SITEX fair's kind of my first job, and I'm rly happy that it went pretty well. I managed to sell a total of 18 lappys & earned $300+ in that 4 days! So proud of myself hehe ^^

Of course there were a few difficult times that I couldn't handle, like when old se peh pehs asked me for my number, some weird guy asked me so many personal qns & even wanted my fb, an angmoh whom I couldn't understand (but at least he told me I damn cute), a few annoying bitchy china customers. But I had my nice bosses to guide me through and help me out!

Those 4 days were really tiring. Going home every night with my legs feeling like jelly, waking up every morning at 8am was the hardest part. But I have no regrets, I'll definitely wnna work IT fair again! And what rly touched my heart was all my friends who came to visit. Hilman came with honeylemon tea to help me protect my throat, Zhuzhu came with another bottle of the same honeylemon tea (so I had 2 that day)! Jiaying, Shijing, Sugi, Dingci, my family (L)

PS: I'm lazy to post all the pictures up, they're all on facebook anyway.

2011-11-23T19:30:00.001+08:00

未来太遥远
也许没有终点

Been so busy these couple of days, I can hardly catch my breath! I still have half of the week more to conquer, omgzzzz 4 days of work starting tmr, hope I can survive! I should be able to get through it cuz I'm working with my idiots LynetteSeng & CasperChua hehe! Ok for the past few days, I was very caught up with mass dance & choir, but I love mass dance, so fun so fun :')

This holiday's gonna be a really really packed one for me, I won't even have time to take a break, much less study omg.

This week: School, mass dance, choir, work.
Next week: Mass dance, choir, CIP, Shop for taiwan stuff
First week of Dec: Taiwan ^^
Second week of Dec: 2COURAGE Chalet!!!
Third week of Dec: Choir carolling, Christmas
Last week of Dec: 11S203 chalet (not confirmed)

HAHAHAHAHAHA GLHF TO ME

2011-11-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

可惜不是你陪我到最后
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

Virgin trip to USS last week with Jenna! Her family's always treating me to this, to that, since sec1. Rides home, lunch treat, dinner treat, now even USS also treat me. Somehow miss how she'd always cab home after school and I'd hitch a ride, and sometimes she'll cab me all the way back to Tamp, buy her macs, then cab back home again. I miss all our sec sch days, but I'm glad we still keep in contact and go out every once in awhile.

So this time I went to USS with her, her sis, and her sis' friend. We sat the Revenge of the Mummy 5 times it was crazy! HA HA HA! And I'm proud of myself that I found the courage to go on the Battlestar Galactica! It wasn't that scary after all but definitely fun! A pity that Jenna didn't accompany me for the ride because she had her backaches :'( Alright I'll let the pictures do the talking for now!

This giant was what we had for lunch, madness I tell you! Supposed to stayover at RWS with them but I had to submit my GPF at school the next day so..... :( Okayz that's all for now.

PS: I was pulled up on stage by these group of ppl to dance with them. It was so embarrassing and Jenna my evil mother still had the cheek to laugh at me :@

2011-11-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

虽然有时想起你
下一刻又想通

So lectures have begun and I'm totally not in the studying mood at all. This is a bad sign. I feel that I'm not prepared for J2, like I barely scraped through promos with my BCDESU. I don't know how I'm gnna get through another year of shit from those blue buildings, but I pray God gives me motivation to start my revision these holz.

Apart from lectures, I went for CIP at Queenstown with a few of my classmates today! It was really fun, and it opened the eyes of my heart. How we should cherish what we have becuz these elderly are still smiling despite their miserably miserable lives. Helping them clean their houses brings smiles to their faces and simple joys to my life as well. And I really look up to the volunteers there, they're so noble, so noble.

Ok, just a quick post before I get to bed. Imma blog again tmr after outing with my 4CR retarded girls! Hehehehe

2011-11-17T12:55:00.002+08:00

像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我

This is really overdued, but I went on an outing with lovely 2COURAGE people after our chinese paper a couple of weeks back! Went to play pool, dinner, lepak, and caught the sneak preview of 2359 together.

I love how we're still having gatherings so often and all, people seldom do that with their sec 2 classes! We've all grown up, but I know we'll always remember the epic moments we shared.

Ok I hate being a girl sometimes. Gave school a miss today cuz I couldn't even get up of my bed -__- Didn't sleep well at all for the whole night too, I was just semi-conscious, and I could feel the pain from my stomach even when I was dreaming. I'm not kidding. Sigh~~~~~~ Painpain.

2011-11-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

过去曾让你笑得很甜
不代表有权利要你纠结

Hi diary, there're so many activities planned out for me these holz, I don't know whether it's a good thing :( Tbh I like it alot, I rly wnna catch up with all my friends, and just relax myself cuz I think I deserve a good break after a hectic year. But, with so many other things to do, I doubt I'll even find the time to study. Oh no!

Sunday was our farewell party for Miss Ong at Joel's place. Had so much fun bbq-ing together, playing monopoly deal & mahjong with Miss Ong. And listening to all our heartfelt words. Glad that our efforts that we put into the scrapbook paid off, she cried! Reached home at almost 2am heh heh had so much fun!

I realised 11S203's becoming more and more bonded. In the past, it was always the guys one side the girls one side, but now we're always together, mixing around as a class! I'm starting to love spending time with these bunch of classmates!!!! To think I used to feel that they're all nerds & kukus. I guess I was just too caught up in my own world during the first half of 2011.

PS: I'll update soon again about USS & 2CR outing!

2011-11-13T14:16:00.001+08:00

生命旅程中总有人逗留
也会有人像你接着想溜

OP's over!!!!!! Really thankful for my group mates and my boss @qian2810 for making this PW journey a memorable one. I'll be an idiot if I say that I'll miss PW but well I think a more appropriate sentence is, I'll miss working with these awesome ppl. Thank God for guiding me as I spoke during my OP, especially the Q&A! On the overall I'm proud of everyone, including myself, cuz I think we all did pretty well! ;)

Alright so these couple of days, I've been busy with Miss Ong's farewell gift. On friday after OP, the few of us headed to Orchard to shop for gifts and we started decorating the scrapbook for MissOng. I went to collect my retainers, then helped out quite alot. Left Orchard at 930pm, I was dead tired, but I'm glad I spent my 111111 with awesome company :')

Thought I could take a break on Saturday but that there was job lobang so I headed out to meet Casper in the morning then to Farrer park for our job interview with Lynette! The pay like sai but nvm we desperate for $$~ Casper left early while Lynnie & I stayed there to complete the scrapbook for Miss Ong, then left for dinner with the family at Kovan! Newyork newyork hehe ^^

Ok bye, have to prepare to get out of the house already! Excited about later heh heh ;)

2011-11-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

不去想昨天的梦
我决定今天好好的过

Been really busy with OP and mass dance this whole week. It's like a daily routine, go to school in the morning for dry run, then head for mass dance, and volleyball/lepak/continue dancing with my 203 peeps! So.... it's tomorrow, OP!!! I believe we will be able to do it, go guyz! Lord be in control tomorrow, guide me as I speak.

Well, not like anyone even reads my blog but if anyone notices, I've been wearing a cross necklace lately. Bought it for myself a couple of weeks back. I'm not putting it on display at my neck to show the world that I'm a holy person or whatsoever, but I'm wearing it because I hope it would help me remind myself to praise the Lord in all circumstances. No matter where I go or what I do, wearing this necklace makes me feel that God is always with me, watching over me. When I do the right thing, I imagine God supporting me, smiling because He's pleased with me. When I'm about to do something wrong, it won't just be my conscience pricking me but God. The fear of the Lord. And no matter how things go, I want to keep in mind that God has a plan for me, and everything happens for a reason, in His hands.

This kinds of brings me to what I want to share about how much I've grown through the year. With 2011 coming to an end, I can say it has not been an easy year. I've went through a whole lot, but I'm glad God pulled me through. I wouldn't have made it without God. I look back on the days I felt like dying, the days I saw no more point in living, the days when I'd lost all hope and all meaning to life, the days when suicidal thoughts flood my mind, the days I had no appetite, the days I ate for the sake of eating, the days I cried every single waking minute, the days of sleepless nights with the company of my wet pillow, the days I only had me myself and I. How did I manage to overcome them? It is by God, through God, and no one else.

I can never thank God enough. I just want to grow stronger in Him. Because after everything, I've learnt enough. Learnt enough that it is never certain for someone to stand by you forever, except the Lord. "Now all I am, I lay at Your feet. One thing I know, I'll find all I need, in Your unending love, in Your unending love."

2011-11-07T11:48:00.000+08:00

从今后想做什么就做什么一个人过
你不必回头问我假装温柔不知所措

Changed my background colour & blog song to a much livelier one! I like this song alot, cuz it gave me many inspirations and motivations to carry on. No matter what happens, life has to go on, doesn't it? And I love LiangWenYin too! So this song's like my fav song currently ahahaha ;)

Went swimming at the club on Saturday, then mummy brought us for hair treatment! My hair smells damn nice now kekeke, and it's neater cuz I got it trimmed a little too. Mum spent a total of $188 for our hair HAHAHA #timeswhenilovemummy

Sunday was church, then to bishan, then to meet Kangsing & Fiona!!! They're still as retarded as before and I'm glad I managed to catch up with them after not meeting for 5 months! Walked around, played pool, then I rushed back to bishan for mahjong with the family :)

As for today, I'd just like to nua at home, going out too often rly shag max. Need some time at home to watch my hzgg & complete my I&R!

2011-11-05T12:16:00.003+08:00

有些人值得等候
有些悲伤值得忍受

I'm bracefreeeeeee!!!! That's the bomb of the week,removal of braces heh heh. 2 years sure fly by quick. I still remember my first few visits to the dental clinic and how my mouth suffered from a whole stretch of ulcers. Hmm somehow or rather I think I look nicer with braces, like cuter HAHAHA but I think I'm just not used to it, anyway I got braces no braces also cute la hor.

So...... this week's been rather hectic for me. Mass dance is the ultimate love! Our class makes up 1/3 of the mass dance team heh heh, and I love dancing with them! OP's coming up, I hope I'll not screw up :/ Alright, just a quick update for now, gonna prepare to go for a swim~ I hope Wendy uploads pictures quick so that I can post them up here and share about our little 2CR outng heh!

2011-11-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

第一个一百天

那天送妹妹到机场，她去了越南~ 好奇怪耶，现在家里好像少了什么似的。但他在家里的时候我总觉得她好烦。哈哈，我想我们都是这样，常常都是这样。把拥有的一切都当成理所当然，等到失去了才来珍惜。当然我不是失去妹妹啦，只是。。。呀，你懂我的意思吧。

对了，华文考试结束了。时间过得好快。怎么觉得好像昨天刚考完O水准的华文呢？哈哈，这次我没有把握会考到A，但是，愿上帝祝福我们~ 好了，以下是一些在星期六到Xiwen家拍的照！读华文读得太苦闷就开始拍照聊天起来~ Hehe！

Ps: Deleted 100+ ppl off my fb friends list. I don't even rmbr accepting all these weird ppl lololol

2011-10-29T10:19:00.000+08:00

我最幸福的事当过你的天使

在生命中，我们没有办法避免不如意的事情发生。这些事情很多时候会成为我们生命中的精神负担，让我们长期陷入痛苦的深渊，无法自拔。结果，我们也长期无法振作起来。正因为如此，我们应该把生命不如意的事情和事物给遗忘掉。虽然人生有很多不如意的事情，但也有很多让人觉得愉快，幸福的片刻。如果我们能够累计，记得这些美好的片刻，我们会发现生命其实依然非常幸福。因此，我们要把美好的东西永远保留在记忆中！

2011-10-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

WR's finally over!!!!! HELLYEAH. Spent my deepavali at boss' house tgt with Allen & Kiathan for freaking PW and towards the end, we started singing! It was quite fun with Kiathan's piano accompaniment and Allen & I sangggggg~ HA HA HA

Yesterday was spent tidying up our PW too, and then, today, we rushed through our editing in the morning! After which, went out for lunch with Mianny Hilman Kiathan Edwin Joel Sugi Sherman Kaifeng~ Played card games together for like hours then Mianny & I went for some shopping @ Tamp!

Today was also our final chinese lesson oh manzzzz~ I'm gonna miss Laoshi! He's so nice, always closing an eye even though he knows very well that I use my phone throughout his lesson LOLOL. Always patient with us and all, even if we don't do his work almost all the time. I'll miss all his lame jokes and I'll miss chinese!

And now I feel so relaxed, laying on my couch, watching my hzgg hehehe glad that this WR crap is gone for good!

2011-10-26T12:08:00.003+08:00

我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱

印度节快乐！哈哈哈！待会儿我就要去拜年了~ 是真的拜年，我不是在开玩笑！我几乎每年都会到粑粑印度朋友家去拜一下年的哈哈很酷吧！但今天拜了以后又要到老板的家做PW了。唉。。。PW真的太讨人厌了 :(

昨天放学以后我和Allen一起去Lynette的教堂去！他们在学校等我教完sectionals，然后就一起去敬拜上帝了！到了那里开始有些尴尬，但后来就好了。最后，Allen还为我祷告呢！很感谢上帝，也感谢Lynnie&Paddi哈哈哈！我爱你们~

2011-10-23T14:36:00.001+08:00

I am blessed

I am blessed, I am strong, I have more than I need, I am saved.
I am free, I am favoured, 'cause You called me blessed.

2011-10-22T17:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in life it isn't always just about finding the right answer to your problems, but finding the right people to support you through.

To all the people out there who are in pain just like I was, it isn't difficult to be happy, it's just whether you want to be happy or not. It isn't difficult to forget, it's only if you want to. It isn't difficult to let go, you just have to look at the brighter side of things, and know that better things are awaiting you. For me, I choose to remember, but I choose to be happy. Just live life to the fullest. Don't look back, don't regret. Live today, because it's where tomorrow's memory begins.

Sometimes I wished I knew all that earlier, but then again, this just shows that I've learnt yet another lesson. I've never regretted anything that we did, because we'd really lived our lives to the fullest when we were together. We were truly happy, and that was all that mattered. That is why I choose not to forget, because that period of time we spent together is part of my best memories. As for now, I'll still live my life to the fullest. I'll still move on. But I won't ever want myself to forget anything.

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Hahaha, I'm like blogging in english chinese english chinese, like alternate lololol. Ok la nvm quite cool actually, today is I feel like typing in english day so yup~

I'm so depressed, I hate choir for restricting me to every single fun activity. So envious of everyone when I saw them in school today participating in the OGL games. I can't even be an OGL. Throughout the year, it was something I told myself I'd want myself to be. But choir just have to deprive me of everything. Sigh.

Anyway, I really need hair treatment soon. My hair's falling at too fast a rate. And it's getting way too dry that it's becoming more difficult to comb my hair. Big fat sigh.

2011-10-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

如果这就是爱在转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪都是生命里温柔灌溉

哈咯亲爱的大家，我又来了。这几天真的很累很累，一直都忙着做PW。真是的。但是感谢上帝赐给我那么好的团员，那么好的组长。所以虽然做PW很辛苦，我们常常都做得有说有笑的哈哈哈！希望我们的努力不会白费，我们一定会考得很好的！FIGHTING！！！

其实我还漫喜欢自己现在的生活~周日时忙着上学，努力做PW。放学后就和我的那群笨蛋走走，坐坐，吃吃，玩玩，笑笑，谈废话。回到家累了休息一会儿，然后继续做PW。周末呢，和不同的朋友出去，和不同的人聚会。当没人约我时，可怜的我就在家里看我的戏~ 星期天，又是和天父团聚的时间了！星期天也是自己陪家人的时间 :)

所以说，现在的我真的不一样了。我不再和以前一样，常常闷闷不乐。我喜欢自己现在的样子。虽然还是会有很多还改不掉的缺点，但至少我已经学会知足了，懂得珍惜了。感谢主。

2011-10-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too

I thank God for my friends. All of them. Each and every one of the people who stood by me at my lowest. It's amazing how God puts the correct people into my life at different points of time. When God brings you to something, He'll bring you through it, it's true.

I thank God for Lim Jiaying. The girl who really meant it when she said she'll always be just a text away. She's really just a text away, a call away, a tweet away, a bus ride away. And because we've seen each other through the past few years, she's that one girl who can relate to how I feel, and most of the time giving me the best advices. Blessed to have such a smart friend to guide me in my studies for promos too, and she never complains, even though I need help in almost every single question.

Of course, I thank God for my class, 11S203. Thank God for all my wonderful classmates, especially the few of them that I love so much. My Lynnie, Mianny, Caspy & Paddi! I'll never forget the times when almost all of us are emo-ing tgt cuz we're gng through the same shit. And how we hung out almost everyday till night to study & slack during the promo period. And the crazy post-promos activities, more to come though!

Lynette & Mian for being there when I needed someone, even if it was just accompanying me to text or something. And how there was once, because I texted "Call me when you see this" and Lynnie rly called me right after she woke up when her voice was still half-awake I think she hasn't even brushed her teeth. Allen too, the paddiman, for all the super long texts, and even available for me at 4am HAHAHA. And Casper, for being Casper. I rly hope we can all promote together but I know it's almost impossible. I just pray for the best.

Last but not least, my dearest godma. From the beginning of this crap till now, my godma never fails to call me at least thrice a day. And each time she calls, her first sentence will be "Ah Jo baobei ah, 今天有没有哭？" And there was once she heard me crying, she immediately rushed down and cabbed to my place right from home in her singlet. It just touches my heart how someone can ever love me this much.

I've learnt now. Learnt to cherish and be contented for everything I have. And I thank you, for teaching me that.

#nowplaying Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
Looking at you makes it harder, but I know you'll find another, that doesn't always make you wanna cry.
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go.

2011-10-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

谁没有为爱做过傻事？

大家好！A水准考试即将来临，我想我又要开始用华文部落了！哈哈哈还记得以前常常都会用华文打字^^其实自己很喜欢华文，觉得华文能更清楚表达我想要说的东西~ 只不过每次用华文的时候就会想起一个人。。。。哈哈，但没关系！现在已经不会再痛，也不会再难过什么了，反而会对自己傻笑！想起这些美好的回忆时，我不再哭了，我学会用微笑来面对这一切。Don't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened :)

星期六，我和世界上最最要好的朋友们到了乌敏岛去玩！！！那是我第一次到那里，所以原本还满兴奋的。可是，走着走着，爬上又爬下，真的累坏了。这脆弱的小小湘可真没用，才走了一会儿就一直拼命喊累! 哈哈哈，弄得大家都受不了我。但这何尝不是我啊？

我们大概走了十公里的路，流了十几桶的汗，可是。。。。回家量了量自己，怎么还是43kg?!?!?! 气死我了 -___- 但是还是没有后悔，因为真的度过了愉快的一天。虽然很久没见了，但每次见面时都会有说不完的话题，谈不完的八卦，我们之间是没有尴尬的。我感谢上帝赐给我这么好的朋友，这么好的同学。很喜欢大家，很奇怪的，跟他们聚在一起的感觉是不能被别人取代的。二勇班始终都还会是我的最爱！！！

PS：晒了一整天的太阳，老娘都变成烧猪了啦！！！

2011-10-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

Love you like a love song baby

Caught Real Steel with the usuals Lynnie Mianny Paddi & Caspy ytd after school! Ryan & Jonathan joined us too :) All I can say is, it was freaking awesumzzzzz!!! I loved the movie, and at 2 parts tears welled up in my eyes.

Charlie: What do you want, now, tell me, what do you want?! Tell me!
Max: All I wanted for...... was for you to fight for me. That was all I ever wanted.

HAHA ok that aside, I've gotten back all my results. BCDEUU. Variety of grades huh. I'm quite glad with my results actually, never expected myself to get a C for chem. I'm really satisfied. Hard work does pay off :) Chinese disappointed me but I know it's just God warning me about complacency again, just like O's last year when I got A2 for chinese initially. Yes God, I heard you :)

2011-10-12T18:54:00.001+08:00

难道你没有看见看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹

Rushed & cabbed down to Wendy's place on Sunday morning to meet the girls! Zaikia sia me, slept at 3+am the previous night and my feet had so many huge blisters cuz of dancing in my heels, yet I was still able to go out. HAHAHAHA ^^

Wendy's mum drove us to Botanic Gardens, where we just slacked, talked, laughed, and took pictures. I miss hanging out with them, back at our sec2 carefree days. I miss 2008, very much. It was when..... I haven't learnt about life. Haven't learnt about love. Haven't learnt about tears. It was when I was still me. I can never get back to that Jolene I used to be. No matter how hard I tried in the years that came, even till now. Ok, I've gotta stop. This is not supposed to be an emo post!!!!

Abi's shoe broke after that so we cabbed to Orchard for lunch and did a lil bit of shopping! Even though my blisters almost killed me, it was overall a good time spent with these pretty girls :) I want a 2CR gathering soon too!!!!

2011-10-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

不让那些回忆，在夜里让我哭醒

My saturday was a blast! It didn't start out well though, cuz I screwed my competition up in the morning I was totally pissed with myself. But I thank God that I had my retarded group of idiots to cheer me on.

Went to Lynnie's house straight after my sucky competition to bathe, then she cooked for me ^^ Slacked around, put on our make-up, dressed up, then we left to meet the others! Thank God I had Casper to carry my bag for me otherwise I'd have died walking.

And........ ZOUK HERE WE COME!!!!!!! It was my virgin clubbing experience and it was damn fun!!!! Went really high & Allen really machiam become seh! Danced non stop with my heels on! I think I damn zai ._. Oh ya the picture above is Allen on stage, being sabo-ed by us and called up as a nominee for Mr Meridian HAHAHAHA damn funny~ Oh man, I miss that night, I wnna go club again, can't wait to turn 18!!!!!

Went to lepak around after that, and I walked in the train barefooted HAHAHA it was a wrong choice to wear heels to club -_- Rained very heavily, so we cabbed home. Reached home at 2am I was so worn out, but definitely, awesome night!

I like that feeling of clubbing, because it freed me from many thoughts, it gave my mind some space, some time, to take a break. Of course I won't want to make clubbing a lifestyle, I will know my limits. But once in awhile, I would really like to do it, if it's what makes me feel better.

2011-10-10T20:20:00.002+08:00

If you've ever loved somebody put your hands up

Just got back a couple of results today. I can't say I did very well, but I'll keep to my promise to myself, that is to be satisfied with everything that God blesses me with, including these grades. Not gonna whine about it~ I really hope everything will be fine for my idiots though. Cheer up Lynnie, Caspy, Paddi! Seeing them so upset isn't a good feeling at all....

So I'll continue with where I left off. On friday, I accompanied Meimei to KK for her appointment after school! Doctor says she needs to increase her steroids intake again sigh. After that, I brought her to sing K! It was smth I've owed her for a really long time, I remembered I promised to take her there on her birthday this year but I didn't do it :( At least I'm making it up to her now hehe ^^

Papa came to fetch us to church after that, Paradise band was here and the songs were great. Feels good to have spent a day with my meimei :) HAHAHA ikr I damn awesome la, such a nice sister where to find you tell me!!!!

Eh shit I have to go now!!!! Continue another time :) There's still awesome Zouk to update on! Oh and Botanical Gardens with my lovelies!!! Hehe~

2011-10-09T20:26:00.002+08:00

想要和你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图

Promos were fine, at least I think I'll be able to scrape through the promotion criteria. Papers were ok, except for physics which I don't give a fuck about anyway. Bad news is I've spent more than $200 since promos ended and that's really scary considering the fact that it's only been a week since promos ended. Self-discipline Jo, self-discipline!

Post-promos' been awesome so far. Have been spending my days out every single day, hardly at home and it feels good. Because I get all moody at home it's just pathetic and well... depressing. On tuesday after our last paper, Lynnie came to my hse for awhile before we went to meet th others for bowling!!! Then happy us had our manicure done while the 2 idiots Allen & Casper waited patiently hahahahahaha

Weds was Pulau Tekong! Fun experience and I got to know the army life better, we even went to try the guns out on our own!!!! Lynnie & I were so enthu that the army boy said we should enrol ourselves into army LMAO! But the gun was so heavy though I managed to shoot hehe ^^ No pictures cuz they didn't allow us to take :( Oh ya Mian & I were late on that day & made the whole bus of 2 classes wait for us! Lika boss but damn paiseh! Reminded me of Zhuhai when the whole choir had to wait for Cheryl & I cuz we overslept. HAHA foreverlate man seriously.

On thursday, I went to Mian's place for awhile before we went dental together! Casper bought his guitar then we went to get our hair extensions done whoopwhoop! Shopping for awhile with Lynnie Mianny & Moustachey after that and I took a freaking cold 518 home from Orchard with the pouring rain I swear I almost died.

Alright, that's it for now I guess, gotta go help out with the WR already. Sigh, project work, the bane of my holidays. Oh wellz. Update again tmr! :)

2011-10-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

我知道不容易，但我会很努力

Just removed my blog website from my twitter, facebook, formspring, and msn. Ok basically everywhere la. Main reason is, I just want to keep this private, and only for the people who really care for me :) To those who're reading this, I love you guys! I know Jiaying, Vania, Jenna still reads this HAHAHA muacks

Don't worry, I'm fine. I really am already. 有许多事不是说放下就能放下的，但很多时候，我们可以选择怎样去面对。我想我学会了，我接受了，我也不再去奢望那些什么有的没的了。

Updating my blog with post-promos activities soon hehe!

PS: Tmr's my competition. Freaking nervous but God will stand by me. I really hope I can do well for it. Go Jo~~~

2011-10-01T10:58:00.002+08:00

All the best for your promos, my friend. I know you must be feeling very stressed up, and probably on the verge of giving up. Don't be disheartened, because I believe you'll be able to do it.

Have faith in yourself. Look who retained but conquered O's in the end? Look who retained but did so much better than so many others in the end? Look who scored F9 for prelims and ended up with an A1 in the end? Jiayou!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe you feel you're left behind by your teachers cuz you think they do not expect good of you anymore, or your peers are so much ahead of you alr. But fret not alright!!! You have so many people who care for you, they won't leave you behind~

You have no idea how much I want to but... I'm sorry I can't be there for you anymore. I'm sorry I don't deserve to be there for you anymore. I'm not in the position, not fit, to be the one to be there for you anymore. And I'm sorry for that.

Therefore all I can do is just type out all my well wishes to you here, like a loser. You're probably never ever gonna read this but I guess I have to bet on that 0.1% chance. It's all that I can do because I'm not in the position to care for you so much anymore. If I send you a long text like this, you're probably gonna freak out. So this is all I can do. All the best, I'll be praying for you...

PS: Tmr's our CRD, if you even remember. If you even still keep the receipt. If you even recall what CRD stands for.

2011-09-28T09:41:00.001+08:00

我不能就这样失去你的微笑
照片还在床角而你我找不到

Went to join the 203 kidz at school to study again ytd but apparently we ended up playing again. We even went rockclimbing oh god we're goners seriously. Nvm everyone retain tgt also quite cool luh hor? But rockclimbing was fun!!!!! Casper the pro guided us hehe ^^ Went for dinner tgt & studied cuz of guilt after that, and I reached home at 11pm mad tired. I GOT SCARED BY A RAT ON THE WAY WTFUCK. Stranded at that spot for 10mins before I even dared to continue walking -__-

You told me you loved me, you told me you'd be here with me, through the good times, and the bad. You told me we'd overcome all obstacles together, we'll walk hand in hand, no matter what may come our way. But what are words if they're only meant for good times then they're done? When the bad times came, when the storm came, when we faced it, you left. I took the courage, to fight on, to fight for you, which I've never done before through the 1 and a half years, I've never done that before. But I did it this time, I fought. I fought so hard. I fought so hard for you, for us. I took that courage to fight. Yet.......... you took that same courage to walk away. Why??? I don't understand why. I don't know why. WHY?!?!?!

Sometimes I wonder if you'll ever read all of these. But I don't want you to, because I want to be the strong girl in your eyes. You told me to move on, I want to show you that I can do it. But you also told me that there's still hope for us, that all we need is time. So a part of me really wants you to know that I still care, for you, for us, for this relationship. That I haven't given up. That I still give a damn. That I'm still waiting, still waiting for you, still waiting for time to do its job. That it's not over for me, it's not over for us.

But what if I was never truly happy until you came into my life and taught me love?

2011-09-27T11:33:00.001+08:00

想要放放不掉泪在飘
你看看你看看不到

GP was crap, utter crap. Couldn't help thinking of you for the whole fucking paper I couldn't even concentrate I feel so useless. I remembered how you were right there with me during midyears, how I went to meet you after my GP paper, after Kungfu Panda, after dinner with CR. I miss you. I can't deny this. I miss you. So fucking much, still. It's random moments like these, where I wished you were here with me, that I realise how much I actually still miss you.

Midyears felt like just yesterday, it feels like you were here just yesterday. But where are you now? In her arms? With her? Right beside her? Talking to her? Teasing her? Walking by her side? Studying with her? Eating with her? Texting her? It used to be me. I remember when it was me.

Sigh. I want promos to end soon but I don't want it too. I want it to end to end my misery of studying every waking moment of my life. But I don’t want it to end…… Becuz I don’t want to face what comes after that. Would I try to start talking to you again? Would we be able to be good friends again? Would you stop being cold to me and treat me as a good friend rather than an 'ex'? I don't know, I really don't.

Ellie: Can I hold your hand?
Carl: No.
Ellie: But why?
Carl: Because it’ll hurt when you let go.

I'm starting to feel that everyone has to lead a solitary life. I think it's our nature to be jealous, greedy and selfish. Between two people, be it lovers or friends, it always starts with the 'i'm feeling high' kind of feeling, but before you know it, we crash and burn.

Like a new pair of shoes, we are unable to get used to it at first, and just when it starts to get comfortable, friction comes in. Or, we start to get bored, sick, and tired of wearing the same damn shoe every single day. It won't be long before wear and tear eventually turns two people back into strangers, or even......... enemies.

2011-09-25T15:28:00.001+08:00

我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

Church service today was awesome. These days, I realise I look forward to church. I used to dread church cuz I'd have to wake up early, and much of the dread comes from the awkwardness that I'll have to deal with in church. But now, I don't really care about the awkward stuff anymore. Even though yes, still as awkward, but I don't really care that much anymore.

So Metroband was here and I bought their CD & they signed for me hehe. The sermon today was meant for me as usual ^^ Learnt alot as usual ^^ I love God more, now that you're gone. I think I used to put you above God, and.............. ya..... Now God has taken you away from me. There must be a reason for it, and I know God will show me the answer in time to come. I think now, God wants me to rely on Him. I see myself relying on Him, praying more often, going to church more often. I want to grow in Christ.

Btw, promos begin tmr. I don't know if I'll be able to scrape through, but I know I've tried. I used to have you here with me, encouraging me for each and every of my exam. I used to have you to whine to about how worried and nervous I am. I used to have something to look forward to after the exams, which is, to spend more time, to spend every waking minute with you. I used to study because I wanna prove my parents wrong about you bringing me down. I used to do my work with your accompaniment on the phone. But now, they've all turned to "used to".

But it's ok, I still have things to look forward to.

1. Manicure!!!!!!! + no more piano now so can leave nails longlong!
2. Zouk!!! & tonning at Allen's after that!
3. Mass dance (with half of the team being Triton cheerleaders!)
4. TAIWAN OMG TAIWAN TAIWAN TAIWAN
5. Brace-free face! bet I'll miss my braces though :(
6. Jamming with Casper Allen Charmian & probably Lynette! (Time to revive my dead guitar)
7. Ktvclub comepetition~~~~~~~~
8. Gatherings ♥ 2CR, 4CR

2011-09-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

说好陪我到老，永恒往哪里找？
再次拥抱，一分一秒都好

Today was airport with Jiaying again. Really can't stay home to study anymore, to think that home used to be the best best best place for studying. Now, I just wnna get out of this place everyday cuz my whole fucking room reminds me so much of things I don't wnna remember -.- But having said that, I feel so proud of myself that I've finally mustered the courage to take those photos out. I lived through this once, I'm gonna be able to live through it again :) 原来习惯真的就会好了。习惯就好了。我习惯了，我好了。

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start now and make a brand new ending." Last night, I couldn't sleep cuz of my cramps, so I just read these couple of words again and again and again, and they started to make more and more sense to me. I changed my blog song thereafter. Cuz............... I don't know. No more 重来。我想没有重来吧，只有重新。重新认识彼此，重新做回朋友。

爱一个人，不需要拥有他，只希望他快乐，幸福，祝福他。说得容易，但谁又能做得到呢？我！老娘我一定做得到！

PS: Kinda looking forward to church tmr :/

2011-09-23T21:10:00.001+08:00

说了再见才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉

Really tired out from studying nowadays, I'll just plop onto the bed and fall asleep right away. Been reaching home at times like 8pm, 9pm everyday. HAHA I wonder how's it gonna be like after promos............. :/ Ok anyways, today after school we studied and then the guys booked the library room to watch horror movie! LOL we damn zai, as if promos' next year hor? K so after that went walkwalk with Mian & we got our supply of food for the weekends :') Bought $10 worth of famous amos cookies while she bought sweets keke ^^

My moodswings & cramps are back, just like I've predicted. But surprisingly I'm feeling quite ok huh. Not much emotional nor physical torture. Oh btw I realised that slowly, day after day, as I take the bus and pass by that same place, I'm starting to feel less and less. That's supposed to be a good thing I know, but I don't know why I'm feeling a little sucky cuz of that. Why???? Why don't I feel the same anymore?! Why???? I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all!

I think I'm crazy. I wanted God to take away the pain and He did, He answered my prayers. And now, I want the pain back?! Eh Jolene Quek you siao ah!!!!!!!!!!!! OK IGNORE ME GOD IT MUST BE MY MOODSWINGS!

2011-09-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

放了自己放了回忆
放了那配不上你的伤心

School today was really fun! First, Charmian & I were late for school tgt again kekeke! Then, during PE, our class owned the interclass game in handball flat flat! Aiseh 203 uh-uh siol! Chem marathon started and we were beginning to feel sian so Mian & I went toilet to shit tgt HAHAHA as in literally really shit! Coming back to class realising that........... MISS ONG BOUGHT 7 PIZZAS FOR US!!!!!!!! Had our pizza feast om nom nom ^^

After that was Chrystal, Thomas Yeu distributed gifts for us and we took photos etc, fun fun fun! The quote he gave me is smth that relates to me so much, "Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." - Carl Bard Everyone had a different quote, but mine I feel means so much to me. Once again, I know it's God sent.

Next up, horror movie with the class at the library and then mass sleeping session! The ultimate fun came when evil Casper, Mian, and I started tricking ppl to cinnamon jellybeans AGAIN. Hahahahahaha their reactions & expressions were EPIC I tell you! Really epic I almost laughed till I died!

Ok, then study session with the usuals again and now I home, looking at the calendar, realising how close I am to the end of the year. When you hit rock bottom, the only place you can go is up. And I know I'm definitely going up. At the end of the year, I want myself to be right there, up there. No one is ever going to hurt me again because I'm building up these walls, brick by brick, as I go up. No one is ever gonna reach me again, because I'm going so high up, out of reach.

2011-09-21T21:23:00.001+08:00

我走以后你现在的生活
会不会也偶尔想起我？

Today's my dear dumb Jiaying's seventeenth birthday! She's one girl that has stuck with me through thick and thin. We may not be the best of friends, she has her friends, I have mine too, but there're many secrets that only both of us share. Many things have happened during these 5 years, many things have changed. And I can say, we've grown up alot since 2007. So many things to say, I don't know where to start from. But most of it has been said alr, and in the card I wrote too! I love you, Lim Jiaying!

So promos' in 5 days, and I'm barely 10% prepared. Yes I'm studying, but I doubt I can make it. It's ok, there's always hope for a better tomorrow! Never give up till the very end! (I'm giving up on Physics though, that one is reaaaaaally HOPELESS -.-) Yup. Studied with Charmian & Casper today after sch again, and it was really fun laughing and all. I want us to promote together!!! Especially @miansmile @caspychua @l_netteee @moustacheyman !!!!!

"Could you really love somebody who was absolutely nobody without you? You really want somebody like that? Somebody who falls apart when you walk out the door? You don’t, do you? And neither does he. You’re turning over your whole life to him. Your whole life, girl. And if it means so little to you that you can just give it away, hand it to him, then why should it mean any more to him?"

PS: Dear monthly visitor, I know you're coming to visit again. But please spare me from moodswings & cramps, I'm finally feeling better, finally more stable emotionally. Please have mercy on me.

2011-09-20T11:33:00.003+08:00

被遗忘的是那些放开手的人
残忍或不残忍也不许谁难以割舍

Was browsing through my old photos and I found the picture above! HAHA good photography skills hor, v nice leh I think :') Ok anyways, I gave sch a miss today cuz I'm staying home to study! Hope it will be productive!

Ytd, I saw something. The old me would've cried the whole night, the old me would've called you demanding an explanation, the old me would've texted my close friends to tell them about it, the old me would've whined and made a big fuss. But, you know what? All I did was, sigh, and then, somehow it didn't hurt. I thought about it for a moment, but after that I just closed the whole window and carried on with my work.

I guess this is where it all ends, because it doesn't hurt anymore. The only thing, my only regret, is not being able to talk to you like how we did before, as in.... like April 2010 when all we were was just really close friends. For now, all I hope for is..... to remain as good friends. Not just friends, but good friends, close friends. Cuz I won't wnna lose you forever. You're a good guy, you're a good friend.

"当你不再爱我，当爱已成为你的负担，当相爱已是一种痛苦，那么，我选择放弃。放弃你，是因为爱你。因为爱你，所以不愿看见你不快乐；因为爱你，所以不愿看着你强忍内心的挣扎；因为爱你，所以不愿看见你勉强的笑容；因为爱你，所以愿意放了你。”

2011-09-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

多少爱能重来，多少人愿意等待？

Busy busy busy weekend! Yesterday, had BBQ party at Gigi Jiejie's house and the food was gooooooood, papa sponsored like $120 worth of satays HAHA I love my family, and how we enjoy good food! Had wine + steak too but the wine tasted really bitter to me zzz mummy said I don't know how to appreciate nice wine -_-

Yeah but after that, I rushed over to the airport to meet Charmian & Casper for night study! Those 2 emo idiots bought $30 worth of jellybeans to cheer themselves up LOL! Me & Casper stayed to study till 1am+! Hardworking huh~

The church service today really impacted me a whole lot. I always feel that God specially arranges things all for me. Whenever I go to church, it feels like the sermon was meant just for me, it just falls perfectly into what I'm going thru at the moment. I learnt alot from today, learnt so much. From now on, whenever I feel dejected, I'm gonna read the notes I copied down from today's service! I'm gonna read the bible! I'm gonna pray! I'm gonna talk to my Lover, my Bestfriend, my Father, my Lord, my God!!!!

After church, I went off to the airport AGAIN!!! To study with Shijing & Serene :) And now I'm back homeeeeeeee~Actually to be honest, I'm really doing fine now. I see myself getting stronger day by day, picking myself up bit by bit. Of course I can't deny that love is still around, unchanged, but the pain, the hurt, the emptiness, they are all starting to fade off, little by little. And I know it's God. He's answering my prayers. PTL, Amen!

2011-09-17T10:42:00.001+08:00

我不想忘记你，就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心

This was taken in Zhuhai. Somehow I miss the trip alot, because I miss that feeling. That feeling of missing you and knowing that you're missing me too. That feeling of shopping for clothes for you and knowing that you're thinking of me at the same time. That feeling of lying on the bed before I sleep wondering how was your day at school and knowing you can't sleep too cuz you're worrying for my safety. That feeling of anticipating for time to pass faster so that I can see you asap, and knowing you can't wait to fetch me from the airport too.

This week was a busy week for me. Studying studying and studying. With different groups of people. My favourite people (2CR), the retarded 203 kidz, meimei (LOL), and tmr will be with another 2 stupid people Loishijing & Serenetan! Yesterday, studied at Manpuku with the 203 clique, and then left halfway cuz Huayang jio-ed me out to watch Johnny English! It was so impromptu but yeah the show's v funny!!! Had a good time laughing :') And after that I went back to study with 203 again. My life quite balanced huh, can study can play HAHA.

I really wnna do well for promos, I'm studying really hard, I don't wnna let you down becuz I've promised you I'll promote. I really wnna make you proud of me, even if we may not be together anymore. I wnna make you feel like I was worth your time, worth your 1.5 years of love. I don't wnna be just another "oh she ah nothing one la that time sec 4 so young, one of my highschool crush lor", I wnna mean something to you, I wnna be someone special to you. 幸福是完成你每一个期盼. You wanted me to take good care of myself, and I will! You wanted me to study hard, I will too!

2011-09-15T19:33:00.005+08:00

I'm starting to love school, because it keeps my mind off all these thoughts. I'm starting to love my classmates, because they make me laugh and forget about my pain for a moment. I'm starting to love studying out even though studying at home used to be more productive. I'm starting to slowly get used to this emptiness. And I'm proud of myself, because I'm starting to become stronger.

Even though I know it wasn't you who replied my texts, and........ it was kinda heartbreaking to know it was... HER. But I just had to pretend that I'm oblivious to all of these. It reminded me of how you used to show me V's texts and asked me to help you reply. Sigh..... idk, I choose to trust you, I just hope that you won't treat another girl the same way you treated me.

2011-09-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

FREAKING PASSED MY GRADE 7 SONGBO!!!!!!!!!
If you were still here I'm sure you'd be rly proud of me. Wished you were here. K but I've decided to text you to share with you hehe! At least friends can do that rightttttt~ Even though it may mean nothing to you anymore.

2011-09-12T22:50:00.005+08:00

中秋节快乐.

你快乐吗？其实我一点都不快乐。一直在想去年的今天，那些快乐的时光，你说过的那些话，你的承诺。一直一直都在想。难道你真的都忘了吗？
如果我们还在一起，那现在我们应该。。在点蜡烛，提灯笼，有说有笑，在彼此身边享受拥有彼此的温暖。我真傻。到现在还在做梦。哈哈。

Last year, on this day, I'm like......... THIS.

But today, I'm like......................... this........

Just scrolled all the way back to last year's tweets. Fuck sia you rly nothing better to do leh seriously Jolene Quek. Argh............... Ok, and now I'm listening to this song. Each and every single sentence penetrates right into my heart. Gonna change my blogsong to this like now.

有多少愛能重來　多少人願意等待失去之後才明白
走進回憶的安排　一幕一幕的對白　上演我們的未來

期待原來是一種傷害　深愛的人一離開　是我不敢忽略你給我的愛

現在我只想回到最初的時候　不願讓你再淚流
寂寞之後　只有你會陪著我

現在我只想回到最初的時候　我知道你還愛著我
親愛的你　請你握緊我的手請你看看我　請看需要你的我　一切從頭

請你看看我　真的需要你的我　只要你回頭

FUCKING MISS YOU AFTER READING MY LAST YEAR BLOG POST ABOUT ZHONGQIUJIE WHAT DA FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK PLUS THIS PICTURE WA FUCK OMG THIS IS LIKE SUICIDE

2011-09-11T21:01:00.004+08:00

一天天重复的生活
一天一天忙碌着
但却还一天天地等待着。。。
其实我该不该这么执着？

Went out with Jona to airport swensens today after churchy. Talked about lots off stuff, studied quite a bit, fought a little.. And............ that feeling came back when he walked me home. Been so long, since someone walked me home. Been so long. It hit upon me that I've almost forgotten how it feels like to not be alone.

Well, so school is starting tmr already. Term4. Time fucking flies. Ironically time seems to go so slowly when you're not around. Eh fuck idk what I'm talking about, I seem to be contradicting myself right k nvm. Oh, and it's 中秋节 tmr. I'm dying to know if it's killing you like it's killing me. So much for reunion. I'll just eat my own mooncake and light my own pathetic lantern in my own room and hopefully burn my house down.

"我不是你第一个牵手的人；不是你第一个拥抱的人；不是你第一个亲吻的人；不是你第一个拥有的人。可我希望我可以是你遇到痛苦第一个想倾诉的人；是你遇到快乐第一个想分享的人；是你遇到挫折第一个想依靠的人；是你今生以后第一个可以相伴的人。我真的希望可以是你心中某一个可以第一的人。"
你曾经告诉过我，我是第一个能够给你这种感觉的人，是第一个能让你爱得这么疯狂的人，是你第一个想一起共度一生的女孩。但其实当第一个又怎样。。。。。我要当的其实是最后一个。我想我只会是那很多个的第一个吧？我想我不会是最后一个了吧。。我想你可能已经找到第二个了吧。

PS: Why the fuck is my new earhole giving me problems?!

2011-09-10T00:19:00.007+08:00

爱得很深所以心会疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人都像我一样笨



Accompanied sissy to KK this morning for her medical appointment~ Waited for her to get her blood tests/urine tests/all sorts of weird tests done, then to see the doctor who told us that her condition is quite worrying. So she was given more steroids and medication to take, which is gnna cause lots of side effects. But you know what, wdgaf becuz, if our God is for us, then what can stand against? God will heal her, medical science can't stand against us. Get well soon meimei, don't worry, I love you even though you're obese!

Then I met up with................ JENNA GAN YUE FANG!!!!! Whoopwhoop hehe the last time I saw her was december last year! We walked around aimlessly, talked about the most random stuff, she shopped for her anklets, I contemplated whether or not to pierce my ear, pierced in the end, bought ear chains, took neoprints, accompanied her to look for her boyfee, spammed photos, dinner with her family! Simple yet pleasant evening catching up with her!!! LOVE U MUM!

Ever since you left, I've never had a night of proper sleep. Not just because of how you haunt me in my dreams but also because every single night, I'll always wake up naturally in the middle of the night, check my phone, check my twitter/facebook/whatsapp/talkbox/caller list/messages, just in case I missed out on something I've been waiting for. Even though I wake up to even the slightest vibration, I still hope, that I missed out something. I still wait, for the impossible. I know it's stupid, but ya I'm stupid then.

2011-09-09T08:41:00.000+08:00

I miss your familiar scent, and somehow at times I still smell it somewhere in my wardrobe.

Yesterday was another laughter-filled day with my 2 retards AngKoonAik & LimJiaying! Oh god, the last time the 3 of us went out together was like......... 1year ago?! Miss those times when we would hang out very frequently after school at the airport/pp/mp library. So we went to the airport to study @ swensens, and laughed our asses off while studying. WE STUDIED OK!!!! Teehee love you guys, shall do this again soon :)

Btw, I deactivated my twitter account. Ok not exactly deactivate, just.... decided not to post there anymore till.... who knows when. So I'll be here at this space really often. I like it this way better because of course it's more private, and... I get to just put my feelings into words without having to filter much unlike twitter. Or well, worry people will judge me for being emo/sad/stupid/WHATEVER. And it was what I used to do back in secondary school before I even had a twitter anyway. So yes, hi diary I'm back.

2011-09-07T09:44:00.008+08:00

Hi I'm back.

So yesterday, I went to Clara's for an overnight study session with the 203 kidz. But quite apparently we failed! No big deal cuz even before we went we didn't expect to accomplish anything much except fun & laughter LOL! And for that, we succeeded.

You can never study without food :') kekeke

Then this emogirl left early and missed out on all the fun after that cuz she puked thrice ._. Seriously either she's pregnant or she has bulimia HAHAHA but don't worry @miansmile I won't judge you :P

Yup and we went crazy after that, spamming retarded pictures, having fun with photobooth, burying each other in pillows and blankets, mocking at emo tweets, talking about the lamest stuffz, and just....... LAUGH. And even though these gave me a break from all the negative thoughts, somehow I still wished you were there, just a text away, just a call away, to share all my joy and fun with you like how I used to.

I miss you.

2011-09-06T10:03:00.003+08:00

Fucking miss you still. Last night was crap. After listening to the talkbox msgs and cried like...... a pillow litre of tears? I....... dreamt of the most heartbreaking thing on Earth. Dreams aren't real, right? Yes.

So hi guyz I'm somewhat single? But life is fine......... As in in terms of friends, school, family and yada yada stuff. Just that every single day my heart just puts on more and more weight, it really needs a diet already. Not just my heart actually, my brain too. Can't stop overthinking about all the unnecessary stuff. Like hello my brain doesn't even have enough space for all the physics formulas already and what do I think I'm doing huh. I rly don't know manz.

I've been burying myself in my books, like, trying to go to school to study with the 203 kidz whenever I can, going out to the airport, macs, etc with Lim Jiaying my dumb woman, otherwise I'll just open a huge study table in my room and fill half of the table with food, then... study with their company.

Meeting up with old friends,the 4CR retarded people. And....... gnna meet Ang Koonaik later on this week too. And JENNA GAN YUE FANG MY MOTHER. At least keeping myself busy gives me lesser time to miss you. (self-deceiving)

Ya that's my life for now. IKR, damn fun. Thanks.

And guess who that reminds me of? Yup you're right. Give you a prize for guessing correctly. Here.

Very sweeeeet right very cuteeee right very happayeeee right, ya I know, thanks.

2011-09-06T00:21:00.006+08:00

WHAT AM I DOING WTF

Was all fine, occupying myself, keeping myself busy with whatever things I can think of. Go school, go out study, go church, go shopping, eat, sleep, text, twitter, watch drama, bury myself in my books.

Until when my fingers just moved by themselves to log on to facebook and brought me to old pictures. Fuck? Why you like to make yourself sad ah Jolene Quek? Seriously can't stand myself, what's wrong with you Jo?!?!

And then I.......... saw that. My heart literally sank. LITERALLY. Oh well well well #faith #trust ? WHATEVER MAN SERIOUSLY I DONT GIVE A FUCK OMG!!!!!! Wait, who am I trying to kid. You? Nah. Myself? HAHA. Who am I trying to convince? EH JOLENE QUEK YOU SERIOUS PROBLEM SIA SERIOUSLY.

FUCKING MISS YOU NOW WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKK WHY YOU DON'T MISS ME ONE AH?! YOUR HEART STONE ONE ISIT. TMD FIGHTING TH URGE TO TEXT/CALL YOU SO IM LISTENING TO YOUR VOICE FROM TALKBOX WTF EH HELLO JOLENE QUEK YOU GOT SO PATHETIC ANOT. YES GOT.

Ps: Eh not bad sia your voice from the talkbox quite sexy huh

2011-08-31T20:45:00.001+08:00

RT @ChineseLQuotes RT @yaobigu 以前的我不懂得珍惜你，我想告诉你！我好爱你，如果上天再给多一次我们一起的机会，我一定会做得到你想要的。我永远爱你，傻瓜。我很愛你．．愛你．．希望我怎麼痛都能撐到最後堅持最後等你回來．．！！

我一定会好好过，一定会等你再爱我！

2011-08-28T13:04:00.003+08:00

" ‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping you feel the same way for me. ” - Tumblr

2011-08-28T09:48:00.003+08:00

我看不开，也看不见没有你的未来

This sharp piercing heartwrenching feeling's been stagnant here in me for a month. I can't stand another second of this pain but what can I do? I've tried my best, I've given in my all, I really did. I went all out, I swallowed my pride, I went beyond my limits, I really really did.

When it was raining in my world for so long, the emptiness, the pain, I went through all of it alone and my life has lost all its meaning. Until you finally came into my life, you gave me hope and I saw the rainbow in life once again. I was finally happy again, you picked me up when I was struggling to breathe. When I was with you, I was truly happy, I found back my happy self. Looking back at my september october 2010 posts, they speak so much happiness. When we saw old couples loveydovey with each other, it comforted us that feelings between two can not fade with time. It was always the dream that we shared, the future that we looked forward to, to grow old, together. It was our goal, to prove to ourselves that highschool relationships can last after all.

But now, you're leaving my life as abruptly as you came on in. What do you expect me to do? How was I to know that this would happen? You've never given me a sign, you've never told me. All you did was assure me that you'll never ever leave, never ever. When we first started out, I promised myself not to put too much feelings into the relationship ever again becuz I knew how much it was gnna hurt at the end. But all the things that you did, all the love, the care that you've shown, just told me that you were different, our relationship would be different, that we'll go a long long way. You tore down the wall that I built up. Then........ what about now?! Just imagining having to go through that torturous path all by myself again makes me feel like giving up on my life.

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I cry every minute. You taught me to grow dependent on you, and I did. But now........? Now that I've forgotten how to be independent, how am I going to do this. How?!?!?! I really don't know anymore. I don't even think I can survive another day like this, much less do well for promos.

You told me that we still have hope, and I know it too becuz love has always still been here, deep down in our hearts. No matter how we try to deny it, we still care for each other. You told me that we just have to let time do the job, to let time heal our hearts, to let time bring back the feelings we once had. But what if you give up halfway? I know I won't, but I'm so afraid. So afraid that time would make you forget about me, forget about us, instead of reliving the happy times we had. I don't wnna lose you. It was something I never ever thought I would have to go through.

I miss you so fucking much. Nothing can replace what we had, these 1 and a half years, all that we've built up together, brick by brick. No one can take them away. And I know, this happened, it was no one's fault, no one wanted this to happen, I don't blame you, please don't blame yourself too. You can blame me, but not yourself. I just hope that you'll continue trying, don't give up, no matter how tough it's gnna be. And I will hold on too, no matter how painful, how hurt I will be, I'll always be right here waiting. I still trust you, and I'm still holding on to your promises. Because I'll only be happy when you're here with me.

I.......................... love you. I love you. So much.

2011-08-01T23:24:00.002+08:00

If someone truly loves you, he'll never give you a reason to doubt it.

难道你没有看见看见我对你的好
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹

不能实现的承诺，当初为什么要开口？
既然我都已经相信了，那又为什么不骗我到底？
统统都是屁话。。。

我的心都碎了，你不知道。。。。。我的心都碎了。

It will all get better in time.... will it?

2011-06-19T02:41:00.004+08:00

S E V E N T E E N

I turned 17 on the 17th :) It was a blast! Really thank God for all the wonderful people in my life who made my 17th a very memorable one.

Initially, my celebration's all well-planned already - an anticipated day spent with Ong and a family dinner. But I got a mini surprise from the 203 kids on Thursday after chem extra lesson! They were so sweet, some of them came to sch just for me! So thankful for this bunch of classmates ♥

On my actual birthday, I went to meet Ong at his house just as planned, and then we headed to Teoheng for our K session! And........ just when I thought my birthday celebration and all was over, I got the second surprise! I was singing so unglamly with my legs all opened in a chorlor manner, then, the next thing I knew, my favourite girls came into the room with a cake!!! I promise that was the biggest surprise in my life so far! I didn't even have the slightest idea about this surprise that Ong meticulously planned. Ahhhhhhhh, these people~ Love them so so much ♥

After that, I went home, and had another celebration with my family! I love this family of mine, even though my parents usually annoy the shit out of me. But, I can never deny that I have the best parents in the world, best siblings in the world. Many times I whined about how unreasonable they are, how they don't understand me, how they treat me like dung, but deep down, I know, and I'm aware that I can never ask for more ♥

Overall, I spent my 17th birthday really well, with all the people I love. Even though I didn't have a grand party, my birthday was way more than I expected. If I were to sum it up, it was "3 birthday cakes, lovely surprises, favourite people, and lots of love" I'm so super happy, this has been an awesome blessed 17th!

I thought this year's celebration's gnna be a simple quiet one, but apparently I was so wrong. Ahhhhhh~ Really thankful for everyone in my life. My dearest boyfriend, who's done sooooo much to make me happy, spent a bomb just for my birthday, you're the best I've ever had. My classmates, who put in effort to plan a surprise for me despite your heavy workload and busy schedule. My awesome friends, who took time off in planning that huge surprise, for the huge card and all the little presents. My family, who showed me that they care, and they love me, especially Mummy! She accompanied me to facial even thou she was so tired! And papa for the seafood dinner! And most importantly, thank You God, for everything and everyone, for Your unconditional love. I can never thank You enough..... *inserts megahearts to everyone*

Ps: If this is only for my 17th, I can't imagine what's in store for me next year!

2011-05-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

Beginning to lose motivation yet again.
I pray for more strength dear Lord...... More, more, much much more.

On a sidenote, Happy Mothers' Day!
I have 3 mummys ^^
Mum, Godma, and Jenna :)
I thank God for all of them.

2011-05-04T19:33:00.002+08:00

I can't accept any of this. Fuck.
Why is everything going against me? Why. I can't take it any longer. I tried hard to cry, but I felt so numb. It's like I've run out of tears alr. Fuck this shit.

No words can describe how fucked up my life is right now. One thing is enough to kill me, and thn another one comes, and another one, and more, but guess what. I believe the worst has yet to come. Trust me. It's coming. I feel it. I know it.

I can't cry. And I feel so suffocated now. I don't feel like doing anything. Not even eat, not even go to the toilet, not even getting my ass out of this chair, not even scratching my nose.

Fuck why!!!!!!!!! Do you know how much that little circular thing means to me?!?! Do you even know how much it signifies? Fuck why. If I did that I wouldn't forgive myself for the rest of my life. Even losing my primary school pencil made me cry. Much less smth that speaks of us so much...... Up till now I can say I still have B's necklace, and everything about us. I still keep the little little notes and letters that C & I used as a form of communication during sec2. And if I lose any of them, I know I'll be so so affected. But to you.......... does it matter at all? Apparently not. You even went on to buy a NEW one. This shows........... this just shows it all. Oh well.

And to think I thought that things're finally getting better, whn you're starting to talk to me nicely, sweetly, all over again like when it was our first month together. Only to realise now that....... it was just all cuz of guilt. Ha.

Fuck as if that wasn't enough. Know what? We've got Gold with............. a piece of shit! WTF. You tell me we don't deserve that honours? Fucku. I know I skip practices sometimes, 3 practices. But I swear I sing at home, I revise my songs, I even hum them in the shower. Sometimes when I'm out with O, I'll annoy him with all th magnificat chanting and aleluia stuff. 15+ hours of practice every week and........... what we get is........... so undeserving.

Gold. I'll be happy with that if I were still in cchms. But it's a total different story here. Everyone's worked so hard. 4 months of practices just for that 15 mins on stage. And in the end, we've got nothing........... I know I didn't stay back for the results. I know I didn't really show that mjchoir meant alot to me. But just becuz I don't stay back, doesn't mean my heart isn't there. Just becuz I don't show, doesn't mean I don't care, doesn't mean I don't feel.

Fuck........................... fuck me and my miserable life.

2011-05-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

I don't want the same thing to happen to us, like how it did for me and him....

2011-03-27T01:33:00.002+08:00

Hi dear diary.
Sorry for neglecting you so much.
To think I used to seek comfort here whenever I feel dejected.
I wonder if there're still any souls reading my blog LOL.
Guess not.
If there really are people wanting to stalk me, I suggest you guys follow me on twitter instead.
I'm 24/7 active there ;)

So, it's almost April alr.
Time........ will you please slow down?
I can hardly catch my breath.....
Been so busy ever since sch started, with endless homework.
School sux, I'm so worn out from choir and everything.
Sigh...............

My class is fine, my classmates are friendly and fun to hang out with.
But there's still this distance, since we've only known each other for barely even three months.
I know things will get better though..

On a lighter note, Op & I are still going strong!
Hehe, we still hang out whenever we can, at least once a week!
He fetches me from school whenever he's free too.
But as compared to the past when we used to meet almost every day..... oh well.
Good thing is, we've learnt to really make every second count when we're together.
Because chances to meet are becoming rare.
Thank God for Op.
It's good to know that no matter how stressed out I am, there'll always be this someone who'll stand by me.
I'll cherish this, I'm blessed.

Till then, xoxo.

2011-01-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

I'm back!
So..... I've been posted to Meridian JC.
I'm neither happy nor sad about it :/
Initially, I was quite upset cuz I expected TJ or AC at least.
But oh well, since God's put me here, thr must be a good reason for it.
So.... I didn't appeal, and will just stick to M.

I trust God, let His will be done in my life.
I believe He'll guide me thru everything.
My subject choices, th friends tht I'm gnna make, coping well in my studies, a suitable CCA and just every single thing.

Seems like a mini chungcheng here in MJ.
There're like 40+ppl from cchms.
But sadly, th 40+ppl don't include Op :/
Miss him much even thou it's only been 2 days, strange isn't it.
Op may not be a believer, but may You still shower Your love upon him dear God.
I pray God keeps our relationship strong even thou we may be in diff schs now onwards.
I pray also tht God You stay by Op's side just like how You stay by mine.
I pray You guide Him, to make th right decisions.
Amen.

Lastly, I wnna study hard for th next 2 years and I believe I can do it.
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"

2011-01-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

Oh great, I'm this bored but formspring's screwing with me ugh.
My responses aren't shown on my profile -.-

Some random pix here :)
These pictures feel like they were taken just ytd omg.
But truth is, two weeks have alr passed!
Time can really fly.

Monday was puppy's 55th birthday!
Wished him Happy Birthday and congratulated him on becoming a senior citizen HAHA!
Thank God for my papa~ I love him hehehe.

My act cute papa who's alr a senior citizen HAHAHAHA!
He insists he's young at heart, ok...... he is he is.
Yummy cake tht Op & I went to buy. Op paid for it :)

And of cuz, th only present he received.
A sheaffer pen from his filial daughter, yours truly ^^

And here, my all time favourite family photo :)

2011-01-11T12:01:00.005+08:00

I really ought to thank God for my results.
Despite being heartbroken, He remains faithful.
I really don't know what else to say to my God, but just, really, thank You.
Thank You, from th depths of my heart.

You are magnificent, eternally.
Wonderful, glorious Jesus.
No one ever will compare to You Jesus.

I got what I want, and it's good to know tht this is what God wants too :)
I'm happy enough, I've proven myself, I've satisfied my parents.
All glory to God ♥

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I wnna also congratulate my dear boy!
A1 for science whoopwhoop, from F9 HAHAHA

To th one who stands by me for always:
Fret not, I believe you'll be able to get to whr you wnna go!

2011-01-10T11:15:00.002+08:00

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know my plans for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future"

I'm putting all my faith in you Lord, and I trust tht you have your plans for me. Dear God, please, help me, I wnna do well. I need to. I have to.

2011-01-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored today I publicised my formspring hahaha!
On blogger, twitter, facebook and everywhere else possible LOL

Some highlights of my 2011 so far.
Op & I spent our last few hours of 2010 & first few hours of 2011 tgt.

On another day, we went to visit Tanyi @ his workplace!
Had dinner there, and Op bought me Vans whoopwhoop!
So gnna take a pic of me in my chio Vans during cny ^^
He was supposed to get one too, but too bad giant feet can't find shoes.
He got his pay, so he sponsored shopping, and we spent $200 in a day :/

Ytd, I went out with th class girls for Tourist which was awesome! :)
But sadly, I don't have a decent pic.
Here are 2 pathetic pix on 2 different days.

Alright, off for cuzzie's wedding dinner. Gudbyex.
Oh ya!!! I recently created a blog for Op ;)
I finally know why he likes reading my blog posts~
Hehe url's for me to know and for you to find out :)

2011-01-09T17:12:00.000+08:00

It's a brand new year.
My first post in th new year, and also my 500th post :)

For now, 2011 hit me sudden.
As though reality came running and gave me a good smack on my head.
It's time I find a direction.
O's results are gnna be released in 20 hours time.
But.......... I still have no idea whr I'm heading to in life.
I can't even decide whether I wnna get into poly or jc.
I don't even know what I wnna do with my life, my future.
I don't have a plan. My life is aimless. I don't know God's plan for me.
Still, I just hope tht my results won't disappoint me.
I pray, with faith, tht tmr, I'll walk out of sch victorious! Amen.

PS: An update with pictures coming right up.

2010-12-31T18:31:00.002+08:00

Still can't believe tht th year is actually coming to an end alr.
Time can really fly :/

Op & I had an enjoyable day @ Sentosa ytd!
I went over to his place to meet him and guess what!
Little ctp requested a hug from me!!!! "Jiejie, hughug~" *opens arms*
Awww *heart melts*

We went to collect our $200 cash vouchers from sch first.
Whoohoo money money (L).(L)
Found out tht we were th only two from our class entitled to th award!
Whoa, we're so awesome ^^.v
Thn, awesome us headed to vivo for lunch before taking th monorail into Sentosa!

Bought tixxxxxxxxx~
Took th skyride first of all! ^^

To th luge to th luge!
Op was afraid I'd crash and die LMAO
I proved him wrong v^^v

Walked a long long way for our 4D movie next.
Stopped by Underwater World heh!

Th movie was kinda disappointing, cuz I expected more :/
But it's ok, shall go for th CineBlast one another time wheehoo!

Went to th Merlion to take pictures.
Th sky had alr darkened by thn :/

Tht's all, left Sentosa and ended our day @ Katong laksa

2010-12-30T02:04:00.000+08:00

Christmas eve was spent at church.
Unlike everyone who has a thousand pix to upload, I have none.
Just two pixxys from bro's iphone.
Oh well.
Never enjoyed such church events cuz...... I feel I'll never be part of them.

Xmas celebrates Jesus! Mine was well spent.
Even though th eve wasn't exactly a good one.
Happy Birthday Jesus (L)!
I spent th night with Op, Yuzi & Tanyi.
Went over to th Night Safari whoopwhoop :)
I love my teeny weeny cute little xmas clip tht Op got for me ^^

Th rest of th pictures can be found on fb, I'm lazy to upload all of them onto blogger :/
Hehe, on boxing day, unbox unbox!
My Xmas presssieeees (L)
Which includes a lappy hehehe, which I'm using right now to blog this post.

My night was spent at Uncle John's birthday dinner with heavenly food as usual ^^

Ok, so this is Jo's Christmas for you :)
Nightz dear diary.

2010-12-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

Genting trip with family bored me out.
Especially when I was thr just 2 weeks ago.
Was so familiar with th place alr, and tht makes nth interesting anymore.
But at least, th trip gave me time with my siblings, and yeah, thank God for tht.

And............. here's your airstewardess-to-be!
HAHAHA they said I have potential to be one :$

Alright, post on Christmas events coming right up ^^

2010-12-29T02:56:00.000+08:00

1 Peter 5:7 “Cast all your anxiety on God because He cares for you.”

Another late night spent reflecting on life. I'm spending tonight in solitude, wishing God'll find me, His lost sheep. 2011's approaching, and I was just thinking through. 2010's been a roller coaster ride, a playground, of ups and downs. Still I'm glad for 2010, cuz it was whr God gave me you. Just when I was about to lose myself, my life took a turn in April this year. Negative thoughts were replaced by sweet little happy ones, and I became a happier girl. So much happier. Yet somehow, I miss how happiness used to feel. Th best part of happiness in th past was not growing up yet, not learning about life yet.

Often, I'm so filled with envy. I look at everyone, and then.... I look at myself. Why don't I have a best friend like they do? Why don't I have their looks? Why isn't my life as happening as theirs? Why don't I belong to somewhere like they belong? Is it Your plan God, tht my life differs this much from everyone else? Is it Your plan God, tht I'm to be this insignificant? I want so much to be a better me, I wnna be so much more, I wnna have a sense of belonging.

But my faith is wavering. I feel so distant from You, God. I no longer know what Your plan is for me. I feel so lost, so uncertain, so insecure. I want You but I can't feel Your presence, not anymore. Even when I go to church, I feel so drifted away from all of them. I need You Lord, I hate this emptiness. I'm sorry God, I know I've failed being a child of Yours, I seek for Your forgiveness. I miss You so much..... dear God.

2010-12-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

I'm a few days late but.......
Merry Christmas! :)
Romans 5:8 "God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us"
Hven't been blogging for a week, I have so much to update on.
Shall blog about th Xmas events another time I guess.

Last monday, Op & I made our way to Marina Barrage!
Before tht, I went to meet him at his place and secretly hid this under his table :P
Stayed up to prepare this little Xmas gift, I wanted to surprise him :)
Good thing was, he really didn't find out!

Got to th barrage, enjoyed ourselves.
Think I'll just let th pictures do th talking :)
Sg is really small, we bumped into Karen & Gaoxiang thr too.

Went back home, and.......... Op found my little present to him!
He unboxed it, wore it immediately & mms-ed this to me~
Handsome boy indeed!
Hehehe, th shirt and belt were bought by yours truly v^^v
Yay, my dear boy finally has a bright coloured tee.
Tadah!

2010-12-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

I love retail therapy! HAHAHAHAHA
Shopping almost everyday, spend money like drink water :X
Momma sponsored us for today's shopping after church, spent 1k+ LMAO!!!
Brought fat ass out for a breather on Friday.
Went for some mini-shopping & bought a few items~

Shopping again with Op ytd!
Met him @ his place after he ended work.
Bus-ed over to fareast to get my pretty heels, then to bugis!
It was Op's payday, so................. he bought me a polaroid!!!!!
As Xmas gift I suppose ^^ blessedgirl94

Shopped around & had dinner after tht.
Heartache sia my money flew away cuz we didn't finish our food.
Shld've shared!!! :( My $100 became $8 at the end of th day ley :(

Purchased similar watches, so Op & I have both similar watches&waterbottles now!
Then Mr Idiot bought this retarded toy and had a fun time figuring out how to play LOL

Guess what........ we took neoprintszx!
First time taking neos with Op, so egggggciting omgz!
Excited till I pressed th wrong button & our prints turned out super small -___-
Major heartbreak!!!!!!! But oh well, at least it's smth :)

And........ back home~

Alright, gudnightz! Off to bed~
Meeting my favourite boy tmr again ♥

2010-12-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

Last weds, I went for Rapunzel with Op, thn 4CR class bbq @ Zhengkai's.

My Soul To Take with Op on Friday~
Dinner, then to the park for a walk.

On Monday, I went over to Op's place to bake cheesecake ^^
It was a success! (according to Op who's tried it alr)
Tht night, we went Teoheng tgt with his sis & her boyf.

Shopping with Jennanana @ Bugis+Orchard tday!
Been long since we hung out, but Jenna's still Jenna hahaha!
We bumped into sooooo many ppl :/
Bought 2 tops & a bag.
I wnna get tht pair of heeeeeeeeels!!!!!!!!!!
Oh and we went to take neoprintszx hehehe ^^

Xmas is 10 days away!
1. I want a polaroid........ Everyone seems to have one, except me :(
2. I wnna be a happier girl.
3. I wnna feel God's love over again.

2010-12-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

Staying up late never fails to keep me thinking. Right now I'm reflecting on life while reading my archives. I have no idea how to express my feelings & thoughts at this moment, but there're really so many things crossing my mind right now. So many issues. Guess I failed again. Failed in keeping my promises to myself. I'm a failure in life. Been a failure for th past 16 years. And I probably will continue being a failure. Oh well.

2010-12-14T23:47:00.006+08:00

We parted with the mist on Monday.
I overslept again & everyone had to wait for me AGAIN :P
Went for breakfast and thn back to Singapore.

Look at our half-awake faces above ahahaha :/
And 4 days at Genting came to an end.
Op came over to fetch me, thn to my place for dinner ^^
Below are my favourite 2 pictures of th 400+!!!

I enjoyed this trip really much and thank God for blessing me with these friends.
They're always being retarded hahahahaha, makes me laugh.
Thank God for keeping me safe throughout th trip :)
Thanks to Serene & her family who're such nice people.
Spent lotsa effort blogging about this trip, compiling th pix from 3 cameras :/
Th next time I come back to read, I'm sure to miss these times.